I know i said i wouldn’t do it – i said i wouldn’t moan and be that pregnant woman who feels the need to rant and complain about how tough pregnancy is, but I neeeeeed to vent and tell you all how flipping awful I am feeling. Plus its my blog so I can do what I want. Please bare with me if you think I’m being a self- consumed brat.
Right now as I type his I am experiencing that round ligament pain that any second-time pregnant mom would know all too well. I can barely move – it feels like I have a stitch or cramp deep in my side/groin area! It usually after a long mission out that it makes its appearance or funny enough in the middle of the night! Yup, on any given night I can experience this as many as 4 times and each episode lasts for about 30 minutes. So you can guess I’m not getting much sleep either.
It literally takes my breath away and there’s nothing I can do about it – i just have to see it through i guess.
Then there’s the horrific heartburn and acid reflux that quite literally has me waking up with acidic bile/vomit in my mouth at any given time. lovely I know. People who have never really had burn may roll there eyes at this, but if you’ve struggled with bad heartburn, you will know. IT’S GASTLY! I may even go as far as to say it’s debilitating. Like you rally can’t do or think of much else when it gets really bad.
And because I’m in pain and discomfort I can’t walk for long lengths of time without feeling like some has kicked me in the crotch. So I can’t exercise which means I’m just getting flabby and picking up weight faster than I should. Never mind the weight side of things because truth is I’m not all that stressed about it, but walking and doing my gentle exercise is often all that keeps me sane and feeling half-human. Now I’m too scared to even take the stairs out of fear I may only make it half way before bending over in a ball of pain and having to call my husband to come and find me.
Plus my feet are always sore, my lower back has taken a beating and my boobs are growing too fast which means I’m probably going to get some lovely stretch marks in the next couple of weeks. And I really hate big boobs so no don’t envy me.
And so all this makes me feel useless, like I cant do anything I need to – like see to the kids I already have or keep up with the demands of blogging and all the projects I have committed to. And as I face the reality that there are still 11 long weeks to go before I see the end in sight, it’s hard not to want to curl up in a ball at the end of a long day and have a good cry. And believe me sometimes I do.
I know I need to just be grateful and thank God for this blessing. I do. And I know it’s going to be more than worth it, but I have to admit that I’m struggling and starting to hate this pregnancy a little. Please no judgement!
I’m 30 weeks next week and that kind of gives me a feeling of having conquered the better part of this pregnancy journey but at the same time it feels like each and every day and every minute that fills it is just about doing my head in.
I miss my wine, my sushi, my comfortable sleep (Let’s be honest that’s not going to get better any time soon!), being able to paint my toenails, my exercise and I really miss being able to squeeze into a tight parking bay. Some days I get back to my car after shopping and someone has parked little to close on my side of the car so I’ve had to resort to climbing in from the passenger side. Yup, you can only imagine the sight – me huffing and puffing as I try to negotiate the logistics of moving my massive self from one side of the car to the other.
So that’s me in a nutshell. That’s where I’m at in this pregnancy journey. That’s the raw honest truth of how I’m feeling right now. Am I being a fat baby? I dare you to think long and hard before you answer that. Guys tell me I’m going to be ok!!!
Preggy mamas what are some of your biggest struggles and what has REALLY worked for you? Heartburn remedies, muscle aches, sleeping positions, substitute for the things you cant have….. tell me your secrets!! xxx