Pic courtesy of Angela Rea at our Sunshine Journey.
It’s 2018. Just like that one year comes to an end and another begins. Last year, this time I was eagerly awaiting the arrival of our little girl. Well, I say eagerly awaiting but I was still 6 months away from meeting her earth side. I was however counting down the days until that scan where my life changed forever. I can remember the feelings of nervousness and anxiety as I walked into the Fetal Assessment Centre. I didn’t want to pin all my hopes on having a girl and out of fear if “disappointment” I had actually accepted my fate as an all-boy mom. Truth is I had grown to become quite excited at the thought. I mean, how cool would it be to have three beautiful boys?)
But I would be lying if I said I didn’t care. I wanted a girl so badly and I had to pray that I wouldn’t feel disappointed with the news that we were having another boy. As selfish as it may sound, I knew that it would be my last chance at possibly ever knowing what it was like to have a daughter and as much as I knew I would love the baby inside me with all my heart no matter what, I couldn’t help but long for the news to surprise me. And that it certainly did. That moment they told me I was having carrying a baby girl goes down in history as one of the most incredible moments of my life. It was in that moment that all my dreams of pigtails and ballets slippers came true. And it’s been such an incredible journey ever since as I have discovered so much more to the dynamic of having a little lady in the house.
Meeting our little Hunter of course was the highlight, the pinnacle point of all those dreams coming true and seeing her gorgeous brothers fall in love with her has been one of the most beautiful things to witness. I don’t think it will ever truly sink in how blessed I am to have been entrusted with such special little people and on a daily basis I find myself thanking God for allowing me the privilege of being their mom. These boys of mine are too delicious for words and Im so proud of how they have adjusted to all the change.
So yes, apart from that, 2017 brought with it so many other amazing highs and special moments. I worked on some great campaigns on my blog, witnessed Noah excel in Grade R, made some amazing new friends, became an official business owner (with my hubs!), learnt how to make Ramen, got back into running, mastered the ultimate G ‘n T and read some good books!
So I’m left begging the question if anything could ever top 2017. Like every year, it came with some challenges and struggles – my anxiety poked it’s ugly head soon after Hunter’s birth, but this is something I’m slowly accepting as something I may need to manage for the rest of my life. And something I refuse to let define me or dictate my path. But I just feel that 2017 was a year of such blessing, fulfilment and growth that it’s hard to see how anything could beat it! Let’s see what surprises await us! 🙂
The one thing I’m desperately wanting to carry with me into the new year is the word FEARLESS. In every sense of the word.
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I haven't made any New year's resolutions for the past 3 years. I find they don't work for me, as they only remind me of the fact that I so often fail them in the first week. I prefer to reflect and look back on all the lessons learned in the year…. the highs and the lows, the successes and the failures, the joys and the struggles. And then I try to draw from those experiences and pray that I will do better in the areas I know I need work on. I like to think that every year I strive to be the best version of myself. A better wife. A better mom. A better friend. A better daughter. A better sister. It's a lifelong process, not an overnight miraculous success. . . . But I do have ONE WORD I want to carry with me into the new year. One simple word I want to live by. One word I want to permeate every fiber of my being as I see another year in. . . My word is FEARLESS. I'm tired of living in fear – of not trying things because of self doubt or insecurity. I'm tired of living in fear if my life, of my kids lives. I want to go into the new year without fear of the unknown, to push the boundaries and not be scared of what others think. I want to be fearless in my approach to writing and discovering more of my voice. I want to cast all self doubt aside and fearlessly take hold of this life I have been given. To live my life unapologetically and authentically. I want to be ballsy without being cocky, confident without being arrogant. I want to stop letting others dictate what I am and what I'm not capable of. . . This year is about fearlessly standing up for what I believe is right and not being scared to say it. . . Sounds easy right? Well I think it's easier said than done. 😜 But here I am , a few hours shy of midnight and this is my prayer for 2018. That I would find strength in God to see this become my reality and become the FEARLESS woman I know he destined me to be. . . What's your word? Tell me and let's encourage each other! 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻
What’s your word? Please share with me below, I would love to know xxx Happy New year and here’s to another amazing 365 days on this planet! xxx