I have had so many blog ideas bouncing around in my head lately but now that I’m sitting here preparing to write, words fail me. I’ve simply lost all train of thought and nothing will come out the way I want to. Nothing in my brain is functioning the way it should.

Everything that was on my mind two days ago is so trivial now in comparison to what the Blochliger family are going through. How can I share my sons 5^th birthday party from the weekend or write about how motherhood has been so rewarding for me lately? Worse, how could I dare complain about the challenging times? How could I even begin to write about all the things that make up my journey as a mother when all I can think of is what Franzika’s mom must be going through.

I went to bed last night with a lump in my throat, a lump that I was praying would be gone by the time I woke up this morning. But instead it had only grown to suffocate me when I first opened my eyes.

And then came the guilt. Hearing my two children playing in the next-door room and realizing that this mother had woken up to a half empty house. I realise this is silly and pointless to feel this way, but I do.

I’m so utterly heartbroken for this family. And yes for every other family whose child has died in vain in senseless acts of violence in our country. Like many of you I can’t seem to wrap my head around it, I mean how should we be expected to make sense of such an evil act? How are we not ashamed to be called human beings when this is the way our own kind treat each other?

I can’t think of anything else, at the back of my head the question keeps playing over and over What if this were my child? What if I woke up this morning to an empty bed? It’s a thought I can’t escape without feeling the bile come up in my throat, the pain making its way back down as I swallow hard.

My heart physically aches for the loss this family is going through. There are no words. There is nothing that can make this act and this loss any less painful.

While God calls us to forgive and we are told he will see the ultimate justice is served, I can t help but long for answers, ones that will help me make sense of this life. Until that day comes, I pray that God holds this family in the palm of his hand and that they will experience a peace and a love that surpasses all understanding.

This is what a friend (Thank you Simon Hull!!) commented on my Facebook thread about how i was feeling about this whole traumatic event that has shaken our city. And while i still feel angry and don’t ever want to be complacent it has been quite a comfort to me since reading it this morning. And I know what he says is the truth, even thought I can’t completely resonate with every bit of the sentiment right now.

What saddens me more than the loss of this beautiful young girl is that such senseless brutality is indicative of how sick our society is, how far we’ve fallen, and much we need Jesus. There is deep-rooted pain in the hearts of the modern generation, and it’s going to take generations before it heals. And prayer IS the answer. It’s always the answer. Because “vengeance is mine, says the Lord”. We reduce ourselves to the criminals’ level of morality if we think we can take matters into our own hands. Instead we pray for justice, knowing that they will get it at God’s hands on That Day even if our justice system fails. I too advocate for the death penalty, but not yet because I don’t have the faith in our courts to send the guilty party to their death. And we need to pray for healing, obviously for the family of the girl, but also for the criminals, because they are very very sick. #PrayforSA

 

To the Blochliger family, may your beautiful girl rest in peace, may the memories of her live on. May you find her face painted on all things beautiful . Every sunset, every blossoming flower, every ocean view, every smile on your youngest daughters face, every new morning as the sun rises from behind the mountain and may you find peace knowing she is in a far better place.

Franziska’s parents are pleading with the public to help them find the person who killed their daughter.They are offering a reward for anyone who assists them in doing so. Please follow this link to find out more and lets stand together to fight for justice.

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