Is it just me or has this felt like the longest year that, ironically has gone the fastest? I mean does that even make sense? What I mean is that it’s been a busy, full and great year, but it’s pretty much broken the speed of light! I just can’t get over how every year just keeps going fast and faster.
If anything it has reminded me once again how valuable our time is here on earth and how we really can’t afford to take one minute for granted. Don’t worry I’m going to push the whole “You’re not allowed to feel anything but gratitude and happiness every second of your life” speech down your throat. I”m just trying to remember to not let the small things get to me, to consciously live with an attitude of gratitude. 🙂
Sure I’m going to feel irritated and upset by things and feel stretched to capacity some days with my kids, but I need to learn to feel those feelings and then let them go. Breath them out. Tell them where to get off. I have become so good at harbouring negative emotions lately, and not because I’m a negative person. I think I sometimes just feel things too deeply and take things too personally. Even with my kids! I moan about everything from the heavy traffic to the internet not working properly to the slow person working at the checkout at P ‘n P.
My new aim in life as we embark on holidays with the kids is to soak up as much of life as I possibly can. I want to find joy and contentment in the small things and the tender moments and relish the time I have with my three little people. I want to linger in the sweet moments, the sweet spot in time where nothing else but love and connection and family matter. I want to consciously try to forget all the other demands of life and simply ease into our holiday with a fresh dose of gratitude for everything I have.
I’m so grateful to be alive and I know that I will look back on these crazy days with little kids and wish I could go back to them. To a time where my kids need me sooooooooo much and love me so fiercely. Right now I cannot even begin to think what that might feel like, to one day not be their number one priority. Doesn’t that thought make you want to just soak it all up and smother them with all the kisses and all the cuddles?
Today I choose gratitude.